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Worried.

Postby JDWench » Thu Sep 18, 2014 5:34 pm

I've just spent two days at a mature student summer school preparing for university, I spent it lugging round a heavy bag. Shoulda know this was a bad idea! I can no longer feel my right leg and have been in agony to the point of tears today. I went for my penultimate b12 injection of my first round and today the nurses were like "wow, you look bad," haha thanks. Tomorrow I have an mri of my spine because it's believed I have a prolapsed disc. I'm so scared, not of the mri but incase it's bad news. It seems ill health is never ending. Between fibromyalgia flare ups, b12 deficiency and now my back. I'm starting to think changing my life now is a bad idea but being in university made me happy plus I'm out of my job that made me miserable but what if I'm too sick to attend? I'm jobless and if I'm not in education I'll be homeless. I've wanted to get educated and have a career for so long it just seems my body hates me.
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Re: Worried.

Postby nogginpodge » Thu Sep 18, 2014 7:28 pm

Aw, so sorry to hear how bad you're feeling at the moment. We all know what it's like to feel that your body is ganging up on you! I think carrying that heavy bag has hurt your back and that's why you can't feel your leg. I'm glad you're going for an MRI cos they'll soon be able to diagnose what's wrong with that back of yours and help you on the way to recovery.

It feels awful to have yet ANOTHER thing wrong with your body, I know. But try not to look on the black side; a back can heal with medical help or at least be taught to behave itself! You are simply feeling overwhelmed by it all and when I get like that I find my thinking turns into "catastrophic thinking" and I can only see bad things happening to me.

I'm sure this is not actually the case with you. After all, you've managed to get to summer school and you've felt well enough to motivate yourself into doing a university course - you can DO this, if you hold your nerve and don't panic, darling! xoxox
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Re: Worried.

Postby JDWench » Thu Sep 18, 2014 7:37 pm

It's taking a lot not to catastophise (if that's a word) all I keep thinking is "stay calm" I'm one of those people that seems to be hardcore and cool about everything but inside I'm a mess, lol. The university are amazing and know about fibromyalgia and reduced mobility on bad days and have helped so much already, I am very lucky to have picked a place with brilliant student services. I have also been blessed with a wonderful physiotherapy specialist who is presenting my case at a conference to ensure I get the most efficient care as it hasn't been great over the last few years. I'm thinking I'm a fool for not taking a year out to get myself fighting fit but if I don't jump in now I never will.
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Re: Worried.

Postby denys » Thu Sep 18, 2014 8:47 pm

Thing is if we start to get ahead of ourselves it is so hard not to see worst case scenarios at every turn. Is there anyway you could maybe have a locker or something so you arent having to carry all your books round at the same time :?: :?: :?: :?: I remember when I was at college the weight of the books was incredible (chemistry so the books were all like door stoppers :lol: :lol: :lol: )

Speak to your student services I'm sure they will help if they possibly can and you might find by showing you are having problems things will get sorted and you can carry on with your course without all this extra worry good luck :-D :-D
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