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arghhhh!

Postby galio » Tue May 05, 2015 7:33 pm

so sore and tired and incredibly angry at my inability to do what i want to! think the flare is because I am worried about the results of the heart monitor I have been using last week, I see doc on thursday to find out if its anything to worry about or if im just getting worked up for nothing. just want to go to bed and stay there but I have to go to work this week, we have staff shortages and the older kids are away on a residential which effectively makes the school a single teacher school and for safety they need me there in the afternoons as back up incase of anything happening. I am also needed to escort a pupil with extra needs to riding for the disabled so feel I just cant let them down, my head teacher has been really good when im having a bad day and more or less lets me do stuff that I feel i can manage and if im struggling will get another staff member to do my playground duties so I don't want to let them down while there away from the school. I also think a lot of the anger is from loosing my daughter last year, I am slow to come to the boil and everything that went on over the last 2 years is starting to play on my mind and I think its just really starting to sink in that shes really really gone for ever! another reason for my flare probably!

ok rant and pity party over just needed to vent!!!chocolate here i come :-P
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Re: arghhhh!

Postby Susan Stokes » Wed May 06, 2015 10:32 am

Hi galio,

So sorry to hear about your loss. It would have an affect on any parent but you've got the added physical and mental stresses to cope with on top. I appreciate you have to work but when you aren't at work you need look after yourself as your body dictates. I hope your flare-up soon lifts and things get better for you.

Gentle hugs coming your way.
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Re: arghhhh!

Postby whoami » Wed May 06, 2015 3:14 pm

I can't imagine the loss of a child, so sorry. As said already the added stress will not help your symptoms from not appearing. Make sure you look after yourself as best as you can. You sound very dedicated to the school.
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Re: arghhhh!

Postby galio » Thu May 07, 2015 1:39 am

thanks for the kind words went to bed tonight and have tossed and turned for 2 hours and given up, got up so as not to disturb my hubbie too much, I am sooooo tired but cant sleep, got to the point i dont know where to put myself, boy I know how a fractious toddler feels now lol . I have found that when im getting tired i go into over drive mode and cant sit still I keep getting up and doing stuff, drives hubbie mad and some times he will actually physically steer me to the sofa and make me sit down, I just cant help it im like a blasted jack in the box, and when im like this i go to bed and i can feel my limbs getting more and more wound up ready to spring, if i dont move them they decide to move themselves and they can be rather unpredictable as to how far they move when they suddenly jerk! Im hoping if i have half hour on the lap top i will get tired enough to sleep, heres hoping as i have gp appointment at 9 and straight to work after.
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