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Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Thu Aug 11, 2016 9:37 pm
by Charlie73
Hi Jeyo, yes funny that, I'd been thinking about a perching stool! Doesn't seem right, I order them for my patients!! For doing the dishes it'd be great, and for cooking, standing at the cooker, within a few minutes I'm in pain. I've seen a 6 week course locally about living with fibromyalgia, I might give them a call and go along.
I spoke to my manager this morning, who was horrible, she really doesn't like me! I realised after, that I know why she's off with me, I can't explain all on a public forum, but I was very unhappy with the way a patient had been triaged, I felt he was put at risk. I emailed her to tell her, but didn't get the backing I needed. I dealt with it the next day myself, all sorted, and actually he needed urgent assessment. So I reported it as an adverse incident. Which goes to her and managers above her.
We're so stretched at the moment it's scary, I do worry that I'm going to make a mistake, I developed a habit of mentally leaving everything else outside the patients front door, so when I walk in they have my full attention, I don't answer my work phone when I'm in someone's house because it distracts me. I have my laptop with me and I record my notes before I leave, that way I can't forget to do anything, it's all done before I leave. Memory problems have plagued me for the last 18 months or so, I thought I was going a bit nuts, if I don't write things down I'll forget.
I was hoping to continue studying, I want my masters, I have one module completed but I've been turned down continually for the last year, and was recently turned down for the INMP course starting this September.
I feel like this is the end of my nursing career, I'm not sure I'm ready for that. I'm ready to leave this trust though!

Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Thu Aug 11, 2016 9:52 pm
by Jeyo
Hi Charlie, what a nightmare! You're doing so well hanging in there. All you describe is exactly how I felt. It's horrible when you don't feel supported at work. Sounds like your manager has issues of her own she maybe needs to address. Luckily my manager had a good knowledge of Fibromyalgia so understood when I discussed my lack of concentration etc. Yes I've done all that - writing things down, extra prep so I didn't forget anything. Fascinating how you adapt to be able to cope and function isn't it? I thought I'd really miss work but I don't. Perhaps when I'm on benefits it will hit home lol.

Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Fri Aug 12, 2016 12:36 pm
by Claire'scomfycorner
Wow Charlie, you sound like a brilliant nurse who is not valued enough. Perhaps a change of job will boost your confidence and get you away from your manager, she sounds like a nightmare! You're still on your nursing journey, don't give up believing that :)

Hugs
Claire
x

Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Fri Aug 12, 2016 10:46 pm
by Charlie73
I love community nursing, my patients and my team see my passion, so it doesn't matter that my manager doesn't. She's not a nurse.

I got a message from my rep today, asking me not to resign, and to hold the trust account. I called and left messages for occ health on the day I was diagnosed on 20th July. Four times since. I've still not had a response. It's such a shame, I had high hopes that they would support me, but it's not happening.

I'm feeling miserable and sorry for myself, I'm not the high flyer I used to be, and I don't much like this new version of me.

Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Fri Aug 12, 2016 10:51 pm
by Claire'scomfycorner
Sending you an understanding hug, I've been through something similar.

Hugs
Claire
xx

Re: Diagnosed today

PostPosted: Fri Aug 12, 2016 11:03 pm
by Charlie73
Thank you Claire :-)